人越是掩饰，
人就越惆怅。
介意就是介意，
再怎么掩饰，
始终抵挡不住那流露出来的情感。
试着告诉自己，
眼前的一切其实不代表什么，
只要心想它成，它就成。
奈何，
残酷的现实总是把人逼到墙角，
非得做出抉择不可。
其实，
当身处墙角时，
或许我们可以试着，
在那仅有的空间再继续坚持下去，
谁能说明天不会更好呢？？
蓦地，
此刻的心情，好像好些了。。。:)
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thursday, September 23, 2010
things that i've done for past 5 years in mmu
Suddenly has the feeling to blog stupid things that I’ve doneeeee throughout my 5 years in mmu, mayb there are more but I just recalled few, and i guess they are really embarrassed me!!
March 2009
One day, I was going to find sponsorship in my friends’s car.
He told me his car is red in colour, so once he texted me he has reached ixora, I also blur blur went down. And I was indeed in happy mood as this sponsorship is important for the event.
Then due to the reason I always think that red/orange colour gen-2 is yaogeng, and I didn’t see any red car there, so I assumed that it’s my friend’s car and I went to the directions.
When I was walking, I’m thinking ‘wow, he is such a sporty guy that choose red gen-2 car but I never feel that when talking with him’.
When I almost reached the car, I can’t see clearly whether front seat has people or not as the car was tinted, so I just opened back door in case in front has other friends. So I also happily open the back door!!!
…..inside……there were 5 people in the car and they are looking at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Stupid!!
August 2009
One day, one senior wanted to pass me her notes, and she told me her car is green myvi.
So when I saw green myvi came to ixora, I checked 1st the number plate is it start with ‘M’ as she is Malaccan!
I did it, so I think it was her car since she told me that she is coming 5 minutes ago, then I saw this car made u-turn and stop at opposite road, I also happily went open door want to take note from the senior.
And, when I want to open the door, the door could not opened, it couldn’t be rite? Since the senior was going to pass me her notes?? Then I knocked at the window, and the window is down, and shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! It is not the seniorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
I said sorry and back to the place I was waiting by hiding my face from seeing clearly by that ‘fake senior’!
April 2010
I was came back from classes and I have pressed button for my floor and I just thought of other things when I was in lift.
The lift door is opened, I went out and as usual, my unit is turn left then last unit at the right hand side.
I told myself ‘finally I can sleep after long day of classes!’ I found out that the door was locked, and I was forced to take out my key to open it.
I found out that why my key cannot be used and not sure it is the locked has spoiled then my housemate got it repaired so I haven’t get new key or my key is spoiled.
Then I was so daring to press ‘dingdong’ to get somebody help me open the door.
Yes, there was somebody opened door for me, and I asked them why the key cannot open the door, then she said ‘is it? Mine one can.’ Then she said she went take the key and check it.
I never recognized her! I thought ‘oh, it’s ok, is new housemate’ then when I wanted to take off my shoes at my shoes shelf, I found out why my living room has mirror and suddenly why my house become so clean and where’s my shoes shelf???????
Oopssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!! Wrong unit!!!!!!! I faster walked to the lift, and that time I heard there was people opened door, I guess it’s the girl who wanted to try her key got problem or not, and she is waiting to reply me BUT I AM NOT HER HOUSEMATEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
1st day of final – 22/09/2010
Time: 2.05pm
I was pressing lift and waiting for it as I have exam at 2.30pm.
After long waiting, I thought I will be late for exam if I didn’t take the lift. So when lift door is opened, I mati-mati got myself one place in the lift and the position is in front of life door.
Then I saw lift ‘intended’ to stop at 3rd floor as usually we can feel it.
Then after I was thinking it is intended to stop at 3rd floor, I started to think my exam stuffs.
Lift door is opened, and I wondered why 3rd floor has so many people waiting for the lift, and in my heart i was thinking, ‘too bad, you guys need to wait another lift’.
And when I was talking myself in heart, some noise from my back, and suddenly one girl shouting ‘it’s 1st floor, why nobody go out?’
Holy shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!
I AM THE ONE WHO BLOCKED THE DOOR AND I WAS DREAMING THEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I felt shy and faster get out of lift.
2nd day of final – 23/09/2010
Time: 7.25pm
My notes is with my friend, so I told her I will take from you after I having my dinner.
So when I get into lift, 1st thing I press is my floor, oh no, I need go another floor take note from my friend, then I press the number and the idea of ‘don’t go out the lift once lift door open!!’ crossed my mind with super fast speed!
Then when lift door opened, I just went out, and again I happily, went to my friend unit which always turn right and 1st unit, and I get used to knocked her window and shouted her name loudly! So I did that just now as usual!
Then I waited her to open door, but before that, I checked whether the door is locked or not, ‘yea, it’s good, not locked’ then I happily opened the her door!
Ahem…it’s not her living room and that is my another friend’s house and indeed I knocked her housemate’s door!!!!!!
Immediate action--------------- > RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!
In conclusion, sadly to say, I never learn from my mistakesssssssss =p
March 2009
One day, I was going to find sponsorship in my friends’s car.
He told me his car is red in colour, so once he texted me he has reached ixora, I also blur blur went down. And I was indeed in happy mood as this sponsorship is important for the event.
Then due to the reason I always think that red/orange colour gen-2 is yaogeng, and I didn’t see any red car there, so I assumed that it’s my friend’s car and I went to the directions.
When I was walking, I’m thinking ‘wow, he is such a sporty guy that choose red gen-2 car but I never feel that when talking with him’.
When I almost reached the car, I can’t see clearly whether front seat has people or not as the car was tinted, so I just opened back door in case in front has other friends. So I also happily open the back door!!!
…..inside……there were 5 people in the car and they are looking at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Stupid!!
August 2009
One day, one senior wanted to pass me her notes, and she told me her car is green myvi.
So when I saw green myvi came to ixora, I checked 1st the number plate is it start with ‘M’ as she is Malaccan!
I did it, so I think it was her car since she told me that she is coming 5 minutes ago, then I saw this car made u-turn and stop at opposite road, I also happily went open door want to take note from the senior.
And, when I want to open the door, the door could not opened, it couldn’t be rite? Since the senior was going to pass me her notes?? Then I knocked at the window, and the window is down, and shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! It is not the seniorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
I said sorry and back to the place I was waiting by hiding my face from seeing clearly by that ‘fake senior’!
April 2010
I was came back from classes and I have pressed button for my floor and I just thought of other things when I was in lift.
The lift door is opened, I went out and as usual, my unit is turn left then last unit at the right hand side.
I told myself ‘finally I can sleep after long day of classes!’ I found out that the door was locked, and I was forced to take out my key to open it.
I found out that why my key cannot be used and not sure it is the locked has spoiled then my housemate got it repaired so I haven’t get new key or my key is spoiled.
Then I was so daring to press ‘dingdong’ to get somebody help me open the door.
Yes, there was somebody opened door for me, and I asked them why the key cannot open the door, then she said ‘is it? Mine one can.’ Then she said she went take the key and check it.
I never recognized her! I thought ‘oh, it’s ok, is new housemate’ then when I wanted to take off my shoes at my shoes shelf, I found out why my living room has mirror and suddenly why my house become so clean and where’s my shoes shelf???????
Oopssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!! Wrong unit!!!!!!! I faster walked to the lift, and that time I heard there was people opened door, I guess it’s the girl who wanted to try her key got problem or not, and she is waiting to reply me BUT I AM NOT HER HOUSEMATEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
1st day of final – 22/09/2010
Time: 2.05pm
I was pressing lift and waiting for it as I have exam at 2.30pm.
After long waiting, I thought I will be late for exam if I didn’t take the lift. So when lift door is opened, I mati-mati got myself one place in the lift and the position is in front of life door.
Then I saw lift ‘intended’ to stop at 3rd floor as usually we can feel it.
Then after I was thinking it is intended to stop at 3rd floor, I started to think my exam stuffs.
Lift door is opened, and I wondered why 3rd floor has so many people waiting for the lift, and in my heart i was thinking, ‘too bad, you guys need to wait another lift’.
And when I was talking myself in heart, some noise from my back, and suddenly one girl shouting ‘it’s 1st floor, why nobody go out?’
Holy shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!
I AM THE ONE WHO BLOCKED THE DOOR AND I WAS DREAMING THEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I felt shy and faster get out of lift.
2nd day of final – 23/09/2010
Time: 7.25pm
My notes is with my friend, so I told her I will take from you after I having my dinner.
So when I get into lift, 1st thing I press is my floor, oh no, I need go another floor take note from my friend, then I press the number and the idea of ‘don’t go out the lift once lift door open!!’ crossed my mind with super fast speed!
Then when lift door opened, I just went out, and again I happily, went to my friend unit which always turn right and 1st unit, and I get used to knocked her window and shouted her name loudly! So I did that just now as usual!
Then I waited her to open door, but before that, I checked whether the door is locked or not, ‘yea, it’s good, not locked’ then I happily opened the her door!
Ahem…it’s not her living room and that is my another friend’s house and indeed I knocked her housemate’s door!!!!!!
Immediate action--------------- > RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!
In conclusion, sadly to say, I never learn from my mistakesssssssss =p
Friday, June 4, 2010
a little bit... --> mixed feeling
today, when i was cleaning my room, accidentally saw one present and birthday card i received in year 2007, i read it and i'm stunned.
"hope that we are good friends forever"
i forgot it but i never stop to anticipate that we can go back to the old days in future, it's okay that it takes years to realize.
The feeling has been lost long long time ago.. but i know it will come back one day!
hope u r happy and can see u r happy, and i m happy for u as well =)
--best friends 4ever--
"hope that we are good friends forever"
i forgot it but i never stop to anticipate that we can go back to the old days in future, it's okay that it takes years to realize.
The feeling has been lost long long time ago.. but i know it will come back one day!
hope u r happy and can see u r happy, and i m happy for u as well =)
--best friends 4ever--
Sunday, December 27, 2009
淡了--》有些难过，有些不舍，有些痛心
以为找到了的感觉，
渐渐淡了，
就算努力坚持以积极的心态面对及维持，
始终避不了，
终于了解了，
当初不明白，
现在自己体会了，
才知道是怎么一回事，
我总是慢三拍，
这么迟才发觉，
我还以为我能说服我自己，
用心一些，忍耐一些，
但是。。。
随着问题的不断发生，
渐渐力不从心，
又回到茫然的阶段，无力无言。。。
原来人越老事情越多就越多烦恼，是真的，
还以为越多事情生活越有趣，其实生活越来越‘有趣’是因为‘问题也越来越’有趣‘。
渐渐淡了，
就算努力坚持以积极的心态面对及维持，
始终避不了，
终于了解了，
当初不明白，
现在自己体会了，
才知道是怎么一回事，
我总是慢三拍，
这么迟才发觉，
我还以为我能说服我自己，
用心一些，忍耐一些，
但是。。。
随着问题的不断发生，
渐渐力不从心，
又回到茫然的阶段，无力无言。。。
原来人越老事情越多就越多烦恼，是真的，
还以为越多事情生活越有趣，其实生活越来越‘有趣’是因为‘问题也越来越’有趣‘。
Thursday, December 10, 2009
郁闷
这星期，
怎么都高兴不起来，
或许想太多了，
想现在，
想未来，
又回想过去的种种，
从郁闷，
到憧憬，
又感概。
时光飞逝，
过去的不可能再找回，
人生真的没两全，
必须取舍，
决定了，就不回头看，向前走就好了，
也不要回想过去。
上天真不公平，
快乐的时光总是特别快溜走，
想念、思念、怀念以前的那种感觉，
感觉很好，感觉很舒服，感觉很惬意，
以为已经掩饰得很好，
以为真的可以不在乎，
然而，脑袋总不经意地浮出以前的种种，
如果那时保持那种距离到现在，
不知多好。
如果那时没做决定，
不知多好。
如果，如果，如果，
那么多如果也不可能回到过去，
除了感概，什么也不能做，
只能往前看而已。
我不放弃，
却也不代表会做什么，
但是我希望，或者相信，
在未来的日子里，
总会找回这感觉，
因为这是人生。
××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
不知道很多事情，
不会很多事情，
不了解自己，
不知道能做些什么，
需要很多东西，
需要很多努力，
需要很多毅力，
需要很多关心，
但不是全部东西只要你肯追求上天就会给你，
有些东西靠自己死命拼搏也不会轮到你，
渴望了很久，希望了很久，
结果始终一样，
在茫茫人海中始终找不着。。。
怎么都高兴不起来，
或许想太多了，
想现在，
想未来，
又回想过去的种种，
从郁闷，
到憧憬，
又感概。
时光飞逝，
过去的不可能再找回，
人生真的没两全，
必须取舍，
决定了，就不回头看，向前走就好了，
也不要回想过去。
上天真不公平，
快乐的时光总是特别快溜走，
想念、思念、怀念以前的那种感觉，
感觉很好，感觉很舒服，感觉很惬意，
以为已经掩饰得很好，
以为真的可以不在乎，
然而，脑袋总不经意地浮出以前的种种，
如果那时保持那种距离到现在，
不知多好。
如果那时没做决定，
不知多好。
如果，如果，如果，
那么多如果也不可能回到过去，
除了感概，什么也不能做，
只能往前看而已。
我不放弃，
却也不代表会做什么，
但是我希望，或者相信，
在未来的日子里，
总会找回这感觉，
因为这是人生。
××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
不知道很多事情，
不会很多事情，
不了解自己，
不知道能做些什么，
需要很多东西，
需要很多努力，
需要很多毅力，
需要很多关心，
但不是全部东西只要你肯追求上天就会给你，
有些东西靠自己死命拼搏也不会轮到你，
渴望了很久，希望了很久，
结果始终一样，
在茫茫人海中始终找不着。。。
Thursday, October 15, 2009
regret
u r so negative,
no matter what,
there is no options for you to choose now,
so just accept the reality.
but what can u do now is,
plan properly for your future!!
yea,
should be think this way,
don't get defeated!
what you have now not necessarily is lousier than others'
mayb will be lesser,
but you can always make it better than others as long as u put in ur effort!!
you already think plan A, B and C,
JUST DO IT!!
believe this:
the brick walls are there for a reason
The brick walls are not there to keep us out.
The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.
Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.
They’re there to stop the other people.
Remember brick walls let us show our dedication.They are there to separate us from the people who don’t really want to achieve their childhood dreams.
Be Happy always!! :D
no matter what,
there is no options for you to choose now,
so just accept the reality.
but what can u do now is,
plan properly for your future!!
yea,
should be think this way,
don't get defeated!
what you have now not necessarily is lousier than others'
mayb will be lesser,
but you can always make it better than others as long as u put in ur effort!!
you already think plan A, B and C,
JUST DO IT!!
believe this:
the brick walls are there for a reason
The brick walls are not there to keep us out.
The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.
Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.
They’re there to stop the other people.
Remember brick walls let us show our dedication.They are there to separate us from the people who don’t really want to achieve their childhood dreams.
Be Happy always!! :D
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
难
关心、
关怀、
疼爱、
都是我想要的，
但是都需要付出代价，
哪者还能屈居第二呢？
我眷念，
舍不得，
不舍得，
但是，
这不是我必须做的。
然而，
我不确定我会不会去做我必须做的，
不知道，
不知道，
懊恼中....
或许人生来就是要享受人生啊！
为什么要想将来？
儿时的梦想没完成会成为遗憾！
但终身的理想没达到更是人生的一大失败！
是不？？？
关怀、
疼爱、
都是我想要的，
但是都需要付出代价，
哪者还能屈居第二呢？
我眷念，
舍不得，
不舍得，
但是，
这不是我必须做的。
然而，
我不确定我会不会去做我必须做的，
不知道，
不知道，
懊恼中....
或许人生来就是要享受人生啊！
为什么要想将来？
儿时的梦想没完成会成为遗憾！
但终身的理想没达到更是人生的一大失败！
是不？？？
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